Ever since Kylan was born, 4 moths ago, I have had a difficult time. I have found that my temper with him would flair easily. I discovered that I couldn’t handle it when he was screaming for no apparent reason. I would have to put him down, screaming, turn and leave the room. It tore me apart even worse to turn my back on my child and that I would get so upset with him. Jentri caught wind of this babywearing thing, went to a group meeting, and brought a Silly Goose Baby mai tai home for me to try thinking that it would help Kylan and I bond. We tried, tried, and tried. Each time resulting a mad, screaming baby and an extremely frustrated father. I came to this conference hopeless for this child. I figured I would have to start over with our next, which again tore at my heartstrings. After day one I went home jazzed about wearing Kylan and tried and tried and tried. Again resulting in an extremely mad baby with a broke down father. Day two I came to the conference determined to get help and not stopping until my desires were satisfied. I sat up a lot of the previous night reflecting upon my relationship with Kylan, how I hold him versus Jentri, and how he is the happiest. On day two in our soft structure carriers’ class Kelley Mason (Kozy) was instructing, apparently she is a celebrity in the babycarrying world. I can sure say she became a godsend to me. We discovered not that Kylan doesn't like the carrier but rather the position in which I was putting him. He liked to be on my hip where he can see out and interact with the world and me, yet pull away if he wants. We put him in a Scootababy, at first he did not like it then I took a stroll down the hall. He immediately calmed down and started to look around. I was amazed! He then snuggled into me and I wanted to cry right in the hallway, but I’m a guy and that is not cool. Then I swapped out for a ring sling, he still loved it! I wanted to kiss Kelley, I could not be more grateful for one person than her at that given point in time. I walked out of that room completely satisfied. To top it all off as we were leaving for lunch we noticed that Hotslings were giving away pouches. I had seen these used but hadn’t had the chance to try one out. I called a lady over to help me pick out my size and we put Kylan into it. He loved it and off to lunch we went. I only took him out so mom could feed him and then back in he went. In an hour or so he fell asleep in the pouch and my heart has never been so full. I am on day 3 of carrying Kylan and our relationship has changed dramatically! I now have more patience for and am more willing to work with him. I am completely sold on babywearing and am ready to spread this joy to everyone and anyone. My heart is so full of love and gratitude toward those ladies who were willing to spend time with me and help me gain a better relationship with my son. I have a feeling that this is only a start of a long and beautiful life filled with carrying my children. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
