I think I'm a bad mom

I am not adjusting very well to having two kiddos. After 6 months I worry about Kylan daily and I feel horrible that I just don't have the patience to handle his crazy love of Faith.

Oh how I worry. I worry about whether he's getting enough attention and feel bad that I don't give him more but Faith needs me... {sigh} everyone needs me {head hang}. I'm not enough for everyone and I'm not enough for anyone.

My sweet Faith has been trying to learn to crawl for the past few weeks; this is what I am blaming for her new awful sleeping habits. She will not sleep at daycare lately unless someone is holding her and sadly they do not have the time to hold her for a 2-3 hour nap. At home she sleeps in a carrier (thank you Boba I would never survive without you). But after 3+ hour with a baby on my back I want some personal space and for no one to need me for anything (and my back hurts if I pick the wrong carrier).

Oh Kylan, why won't you listen to me? I can ask you a hundred times to pick something up or to get your clothes on and unless I YELL you either don't hear me or don't think I mean it...I'm not sure which. Maybe I should have been yelling at you since you were 1, then maybe you'd know I mean it. {head hang} I hate to yell. I ask nicely. I say please. Yelling feels like being a bad mom. I love you, I don't want to yell. {sigh} We'll get through this I'm sure, we have to, for time waits for no man. I just wish I knew how to handle it better. I feel like I stink at this whole mom thing these days {tears}.

On Hold

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This Kid's a Screamer.

See this kid?

Don't let his sleeping innocents fool you. He's a screamer. "Oh it can't be that bad." You think to yourself. Ha! Think again. This kid'll out scream any kid you got and has been this way since the day he was born.

He has screamed in the car all the way from Burley, Idaho to Idaho Falls. Crashed for 20 minutes only to wake up and start whaling again. If you put him in his room and shut the door for some "time out" he'll scream for more than an hour if you let him. AND he'll bang things on the door. Anything he can find.

Today went like this: grouchy pants needs a nap. We come home and prepare for nap time. Step one, take shoes off. Crying ensues. Step 2, try to read him a book. All hell breaks loose. I put him in his room because there is no reasoning with this kid like this. He cries & tries to run out of his room. He gets put back in his room with the door shut this time. *He weeps, he wails, he whacks stuff against the door. If the whacking gets too heavy I go in and take out whatever it is.* Repeat.** After taking out: 1 basket of stuffed animals, 1 box of Mr. Potato heads, 1 box of marble mania, 1 Melissa & Doug shape sorter toy, 1 pop up 123 toy, 1 fisher price drum, 1 hammer/ball toy, and 1 DVD player (yes the DVD player was found by the door not on the dresser where it normally goes for breathing treatments) I finally decided to go in and stop him. As I was opening the door he was going for the little people train set to whack against the door no doubt. This went on for at least 45 minutes.

We could have never done cry it out with this kid he'd have cried til he threw up every time. I have no idea what I'm going to do with this 2 year old.

Needing to Vent be Warned

Do NOT read this if you are going to have a problem with me later for it. I just need to vent and there's no one here to talk to but my 16 month old and he won't empathize with me.

I HATE OUR NEIGHBORS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know the ones that live below us. Her parents own their unit and APPARENTLY one of the other buildings in the complex.  They think that it is their RIGHT to park where the HELL EVER THEY WANT in the parking lot. EVEN if that includes parking RIGHT BEHIND MY CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is out my front door and see that white corner in the bottom of the picture, That's where my car is parked. I will admit that yesterday she was parked farther back and yesterday I wrote in the dirt that was on the side of her car. I'm not proud of it but I was mad and they don't seem to be getting the message. See the NO PARKING sign. Yeah, they can't read either. I've left notes on their cars asking them not to park there.  I've talked to them in person and they don't care. They think that they are ABOVE the rules. They may own the building but they don't own the parking lot! If they do get their way and become chairman of the home owners association there won't be a thing I can do about it except maybe TOWANDA their car.

If only I were older and had more insurance....If only.

The Handyman

Have you met my hubby? No. You really should. He's an awesome guy. He can do almost anything: my car, my toilet, my walls, he paints, he nail guns, he hammers, he screws things (oh wait, now don't get dirty on me) His most recent manliness was demonstrated by his fixing my dryer.

Ya see, on of those paddle-thingys on the inside (you know the ones that help toss the clothes around) it tried to eat one of my wash cloths because it was loose. So my totally awesome hubby did what he does best...He took the dryer apart.

See how the top is no longer on my dryer?

It's all good now though he got the paddle in position, screwed her up and saved my day!

SEE! He's Soooooo HANDY!!!

please forgive my pictures, my laundry room is small and I could only get the door open half way with the dryer pulled out to even get a picture and it's only a $50 camera so forgive it's crappy white balance ok?

Weekend FUN

We decided to take Kylan to the zoo last friday. Corey and Kylan got to pet some goats.

 tryin' to make a break for it.

On Saturday we spent the WHOLE day in Rigby at Stampede Days.

 We watched the parade.

 Hung out with friends.

 and went to the world's lamest rodeo (we left early because "somebody" was tired and didn't want to sit still and by 8:30 they STILL hadn't started with the "rodeo" part). This is what Kylan thought of it.

Hippies

That's right... we are officially cloth diapering hippies!

I ♥ Teddy Grahams

These little babies HATE my guts. Why would these sweet little innocent Grahams want to hate such nice person you ask? because they want REVENGE!!! They're tired of being eaten and in protest, they have decided to leave crumbs any where and EVERYWHERE they have been left. This little mutiny has been aided and abetted by Kylan, who thinks he should: A) pull all of the Grahams out of the bag because they look better strewn across my floor, B) whack said Grahams on the floor leaving more rebells for  the cause, and C) trapes around the house with these invaders so as to leave them in any crack and crevasse possible, thus leaving me with a kitchen floor that crunches with every step. And so...

I'm planning my own attack against these crummy invaders. I'll bring in my own army.
Behold, my ARMY.

These sweet little bears will be used to replace those rebels. Why you ask? Because these little guys don't leave nearly as many crumbs. Mind you they do leave a few as Kylan bites their legs off or spills a few here and there but they are NO WAY as crummy as the Rebel Grahams mentioned above so there it is, the reason why...

I ♥ Teddy Grahams!!

Randomness

Look at what we found in the mail!

I taught Kylan to blow dandelions

Kylan's favorite position

Kickin' it @ City

I just want an excuse to post my photos so Enjoy!

 Corey helping Kylan down the at the base of the toddler death trap route.

 Trekking in to the base of our one and only climb of the weekend. "Roller coaster!"

 Kylan in his "harness" "climbing the base of "Roller coaster"

Hanging out at the base of the route.

Kickin' it at the car while Mom and Dad pack up.

Having a Ball!

So my sweet sister gave us some play place balls and one day last week I decided it'd be a good idea to bust them out after cleaning up all of the other toys of course. Looks like Kylan had fun to me.

FHE Playing with Chalk

This is what we did for our FHE activity last week. 

We busted out the sidewalk chalk and let Kylan go at it.

 See his awesome snaggle tooth peaking out?

Here you can see Pokey and Pokey the sequel

 I love the funny faces he makes!

 Needless to say he ended up COVERED in chalk but he had a great time!

1st Birthday!!!

I don't have a lot to say (as usual) but I have pictures to share from Kylan's first birthday party. This was a practice run at my friend Kalli's house the day of his birthday. We'll be having a BIG Ole' Party with the grandparents this weekend in Twin. Enjoy :-)

First we opened birthday cards

 Then we opened presents

 And we had Birthday cupcakes

 This is what Kylan did with the cupcake

All in all, I think he liked it. Happy Birthday, birthday boy!